Pandemic

The strangest of times. We are ‘sheltering in place’, only leaving our homes to buy food and medicine. We are allowed to walk outside while keeping a distance from our fellow humans. We live on Zoom calls and Face Time. Our hands are chapped from washing....

Forgiveness

This morning, my dog sitter dropped off Felix after he spent the day and night  with him. My dog sitter is a 60 something gay man who lets Felix get on the couch and sleep on his bed. Felix always comes back tired and dirty, signs that he had a great time with Boddi,...

The Dark Season

As we approach the nadir of the winter solstice, our days in the Northwest are overcast, rainy and gray. It’s dark by 4 in the afternoon. Trees are bare of leaves, the garden plants are hoarding their nutrients underground. My old shamanic teacher taught that...

Retreat

Recently, I attended a silent retreat with nuns from California. During the retreat they educated us about the dilemma of bhikkhuni ordination, which has been denied them by the Vipassana forest elders in Thailand. An Ajahn in Australia ordained them but the Thailand...

The Journey of Grief

When I got the news that my brother was dead, I was in my midwifery clinic. Another brother called to tell me and when I asked how, he responded, ‘suicide’. All the years we had watched him falter and fall. Tangles with the law, driving drunk, domestic...